| University Bible Fellowship (UBF) is evil part 1: |
[Sep. 27th, 2009|03:15 am] |
Since I have left that horrible church of theirs, I have still been trying to appreciate the reality that I don't have to go back there. It still feels like I'm under a horrible burden/yoke of slavery when trying to live these days of my life. It's amazing how the Bible teaches us at the end what to look out for, and yet... it ends up sneaking up on us (because we didn't listen to it, didn't know it, or we were tricked) and using the exact words we look to for the answer, the enemy uses these the words to gain control over innocent Christians trying to understand Jesus and Paul. So, it was almost like... they were twisting around all of the words of the New Testament to destroy the original meaning of it. I was so scared at a time because I thought that if I had continued to study to study the bible with them, all true meaning would be lost out of my sight. I never wanted to study the Gospel of John with them because I thought they would corrupt it the same way that they had corrupted some of the other Gospels. They were changing the meanings of words like, humble, and some other ones so that we would not understand what they meant anymore. They took "control" over these words so that the ones in that church would not know the original meaning anymore. I felt the "ripping" apart of my soul when listening to one of these messages given by the preacher. It was the most horrible language I had ever heard, the moment I stopped listening to him, I entered into a paradise of serene music with beautiful birds chirping beautiful music and I was able to feel "at peace" for once.
I am still trying to get a grip on what actually took place at that church and how I can put my feelings down on paper(keyboard), but I have lost a lot of confidence in myself since the guilt started. I am starting to pray all the time everyday for them now and I feel a lot better for doing so. I felt for the longest time guilty because I had "left/abandoned" some innocent Christians there with the wolves in the same building, without giving them/showing them the error of the church's ways so to introduce them into the wonderful freedom of Jesus' love, but until now, I have the utmost confidence and belief that God can help them through prayer. I did not have enough energy or "guts" to stand up to the evil which was happening in that Church it was so scary. It felt like I was in prison/North Korea/communist country with no way out except death.
God is helping me to "let go" of my concern for these unfortunate individuals(old friends) by giving me confidence that He can "handle" the problems with the church and with their teaching. If someone learns what the BIble says and how it says the many things it does(how God talks), then they will either act with Love or with Evil in regard to the text. I believe that it was/is written in such a way that everyone can get what they need out of it, whether it be evil energy from Satan or Loving support from Jesus. Good Luck all who find the guts to join the fight in searching for the ultimate treasure, the peace that comes through faith in Jesus, to receive his love, which will provide you all the energy necessary to surpass and travel beyond this plane of existence(earthly sin) and into heavenly Love which is beyond Glorious. I tell you that I have not received such beauty/peace/serenity/relaxation anywhere else in my entire life than learning how to trust/believe/havefaith in the Lord. If anyone starts coming under attacks from Satan and you are in a safe place, please pray for the ones who are stuck in the place that they do not want to be, the place where they want to leave by all means, but do not have the energy to get up and save themselves, imagine innocent souls tricked into sinning thus being dragged into hell against their own wills/conscience/desire, it is happening in this day. THE REASON IS THIS: You cannot fight back against Satan by yourself, because he has deceived the people into believing that man will always be there for them, thus they end up taking their eyes off of Jesus who is the only one to save anyone from Satan. This is a righteous prayer to save you from your trouble. Be thankful no one has taught you against Jesus yet. I am dead everyday I do not have faith in Jesus. God BLESS you warriors!!!!!!
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| Wow, this is interesting. |
[May. 8th, 2005|10:17 pm] |
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E-mails 'hurt IQ more than pot'
http://www.cnn.com/2005/WORLD/europe/04/22/text.iq/index.html
This article has some interesting statistics about people who check their emails. It says that getting distracted by reading some emails and responding to them puts your brain in a certain mode of thinking, so that when you try to get on with your regular work during the day it's harder to make the transition between both activities. It puts your brain on an "always alert" mode. Which is impossible for the average person to purse. In essence it turns it off and makes you stupid. |
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| uhhh |
[Mar. 29th, 2005|09:57 pm] |
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fake, but interesting nonetheless.
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| Artsy shit |
[Mar. 26th, 2005|02:08 pm] |
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http://www.eviltree.de/zoomquilt/zoom.htm
^That is awesome.
Recently I've been playing the fuck out of Lumines on my PSP. A lot of people have it now so I'm just wondering how high the learning curve is. I've been playing for 3-4 months and I'm still learning new shit. I almost maxed out my challenge mode score without cheating. I was playing for 2 hours. Also after I'm done playing, I get ADD like a motherfucker. It's interesting. I highly recommend this game to anyone willing to put their building block skills and maximum finger speed to the test. This game was also voted best puzzle game of all time on some site. It's also the highest scoring launch psp game. Goto www.gamefaqs for all the info. |
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| Help Yourself |
[Mar. 7th, 2005|01:18 am] |
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Originally posted on Shoryuken.com/forums http://www.shoryuken.com/forums/showthread.php?t=84729
What the FUCK(*BLEEP*) do we know?
Has anybody ever heard of this movie before? I saw it three days ago and it's still blowing my mind. It's a kind of documentary thing where these directors got together a bunch of physisists and doctors and shit and basically explain Quantum Physics in laymins terms. I've been thinking about this shit constantly. I can't get it out of my head.
I used to be a worrier. I thought out shit like mad trying to think of what would happen if I did something like say, talk to a hot chick. Most of the time it didn't happen. I just wondered about it like an idiot and let my chance go by. Let's fast-forward to today. I'm still thinking about the movie by the way. At work, me and my co-worker talk about physics and matter. (I work at Blockbuster by the way so I got to see this movie early). So, while I'm at work helping customers and talking up our NEW movie passes, (9.99 are you outta your mind), I'm talkin to these chicks like they don't even matter at all. They couldn't even touch me. I was saying to myself in my head, omfg. So yea, even now, thinking about rewiring my brain and the such, I think I'm developing a photographic memory.
I'm basically thinking to myself I don't need my old thoughts anymore. I'm not letting my past experiences cloud my present reality. My brain has snapped out of a pattern of negative thoughts and it is craving energy and stimulation.
So, I created this thread for people to talk about this movie and what it's all about.
Some points the movie brings up -
-thoughts and emotions
-reality and present time
-quantum mechanics/particles/energy
-thought processes
-visual stimuli
There's so much in this movie I can't even remember it all. And they explain all of it. Basically, this movie has changed my life forever. My mind isn't bored anymore. I'm constantly thinking and reshaping my brain receptors like crazy. I'm thinking about physics like it's nothing. It's becoming second nature to me.
A little bit more about me, I smoked weed almost everyday. I haven't smoked in three days after watching this movie. It completely blows my mind. |
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| Alright |
[Jan. 20th, 2005|04:20 am] |
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Alright, holy shit. Where did this song come from? It's called PANDEMONIUM and it's by ZiGZaG. I guess it's on In the Groove cuz I've got the simfile of it on stepmania. This is THE fucking CRAZIEST song. It's like,.... fucking,... MaximumOFlegendofMAXxUnlimitedxMax330. I HAVE TO SEE SOMEONE PLAY THIS SONG WITH THEIR FEET! Go ---> http://www.bemanistyle.com/sims/simfile.php?id=6038 <----there and download this everybody. Anyone know the code to unlock this beast? |
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| Internet Savior |
[Jan. 8th, 2005|10:35 pm] |
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Alright, so there was a new anti-spyware program out. It's official and it comes from Microsoft. Here's the link. It's only a 6meg file.
http://www.microsoft.com/downloads/details.aspx?FamilyId=321CD7A2-6A57-4C57-A8BD-DBF62EDA9671&displaylang=en
This is THE best spybot killer I have used. It actually fixed my brother/parents computer downstairs which was on the verge of destroying itself. I recommend everyone use it if you have the slightest hint of virus or spyware related programs or files on your computers. |
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| hey |
[Dec. 26th, 2004|01:04 am] |
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Merry Christmas everybody! This is kinda late but I was also kinda busy. The only thing I really wanted for Christmas was a new bed. My mom and I should be getting that soon. It's the only thing I find that I want, the ability to sleep better. I've been getting 12+ hours of sleep every night and that is in an old, washed out old people bed. So sleeping in a nice bed would be a dream. Again, Merry Christmas! Everybody deserves it. |
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| Lucid Dreaming |
[Nov. 23rd, 2004|04:35 pm] |
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On the internet this afternoon I accidentally ran into a Lucid Dreaming site. I'm planning on trying to get a hold of this shit again. Last time I tried this stuff it freaked me out when it actually happened. Anyone wanting to learn everything from what it's all about and how to do it go
(http://www.lucidcrossroads.co.uk/how.htm) <--- here
See you at the crossroads. |
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| awesome |
[Nov. 22nd, 2004|06:21 pm] |
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Today was the day my 24 page essay was due for history. Yeah so I decided not to do it. At 11:30 when I was supposed to walk to class I went and dropped it instead, seeing as how today was the last day to drop any classes. Ran into a coworker. Rommel is wierd. After that I sat and ate some pizza with Brian, Ernest/Ernest GF, Eric, and Grammy. After I was done with school I went to EB to see if I could by a DS. They had some in, thing is, they only sell them to people who have them preordered. That's pretty fucked up. The cashier was like... "If you preorder it now, we can get you one by Dec. 9." I was pissed because I thought I was gonna get one, so I HAD TO buy something else. I had to have something new. I looked on the shelf and saw Capcom Fighting Evolution. I was like... "HMMMMMMMMMMMMM." So I got that now and it's OKAY. The graphics suck ass, almost as much as chaos... but it's like Capcom style. And there's tons of unlocks. Fighting Ryu and Guile against some dinosaurs is REALLY fun though. Rice Barrel!! |
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[Nov. 19th, 2004|10:43 pm] |
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I FUCKING HATE YOU PROCRASTINATION...
I HATE YOU!!!
/END HISTORY 1A |
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[Nov. 16th, 2004|10:00 pm] |
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So today I finally got my hair cut. It's awesome. I don't look like a hippy anymore. It's all short and spiky. I feel dirty with too much hair. So yea, I was watching Finding Forrester last night with my mom. It made me emotional watching that stuff again. It's such a good movie T_T. Onto some real stuff.
I have a lot of problems in my life, most of which I don't even know how to go about solving. But, if I focus only on school because (I KNOW) it's important, I can put myself in a direction where not many things can go wrong. Everything will fall into place once I have my mind set on something and have goals. Plus, I'm going to keep myself busy. Not doing anything only leads to a harder state of confusion and seclusion.
So yea, I went to the library to study for my Geology test on Thursday. I studied for the test by putting everything in matching pairs and put all the facts on index cards. It took me 2 hours but I got down all the test material. Also when I was there I saw SKIPPY! I said "wassup" and he was telling me all about how he's really into school now and he doesn't have time for anything because he's too busy studying. Smart kid.
After my study session, I checked out a book called "Devil in a Blue Dress." I recongnized the title from a movie I noticed at Blockbuster. I plan on reading the book, then watching the movie. I want to see how they relate and see if I notice anything better in the book. I've heard books are better than movies themselves. I've never EVER read a book before watching it's movie counter-part. |
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| oh great |
[Nov. 13th, 2004|02:46 am] |
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I feel so confused I don't know what's going on anymore. It's hard to concentrate on my school work and I even have a hard time relaxing. Recently (in the past 5-7 months) it's been the craziest, most confusing, and self reflecting time in my life. I want to be happy and experience the world for what it is but the way I act does not reflect my thinking patterns (wait, yes it does). <-- This has to change. I am in denial about a TON of shit in my life. I feel like my brain is fucked the fuck up. Is it bad to act a way in which you don't mean to do any of it? Is it bad to ignore problems? Is it bad to be in denial of your worry of your problems? Is it bad to not know what you want to do later in life? Is it bad for people to hate you? Is it a problem being undecisive? Is it bad not being able to think what is best for me? Is it bad not loving myself? Is it bad not being able to hear and understand people when they try to help me? Is it bad thinking too much?
I'm trying right this second to live in this moment. I'm going off on a tangent now from what poppped into my head now from earlier today. Is it possible to live in reality? The present is ever changing. But... is it possible to realize what is going on at this exact moment? To figure out how fast the electrical impulses in your brain travel throughout your body. Then figure out the amount of time it takes for you to notice things external to yourself. Relate them both. Then to forget it at the exact moment you notice ANYTHING else happening in the present. This would be another electrical impulse just passing through your body. A constant flow of new information entering and exiting your body. With this thought pattern, I wouldn't have time to worry about all the bullshit in the past or the future. This is my goal to achieve. Nothing bad is happening. There is nothing to worry about. I need to go to bed. Goodnight peoples. |
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| read this shit |
[Nov. 9th, 2004|07:23 pm] |
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TRAGEDY OF AMERICA'S DATE-RAPED MEN
Forced into the sack by horny women, these men are screwed for life...
By DORIAN WAGNER
A man wakes up drenched in sweat from nightmares of naked, sexcrazed women, tearing his clothes off and demanding to have their way with him. This nightmare scenario is becoming more and more common -- it's the tragedy of America's date-raped men.
An increasing number of these victims of female-perpetrated rape are coming forward with their stories and are looking for support, says sexual assault awareness expert Branden Finell.
"It's absolutely sickening what these guys have had to go through," says Finell, who has written two books on the subject, Pucker, Sucker! and Survive the Ride, and founded a support group for Unwillingly Sexually Exploited Dudes, or U.S.E.D., that helps men cope with their traumatic forced-into-sex experiences.
Says Finell: "A night of passion with some voracious minx, well, it can scar a man for the rest of his life.
"We're talking about guys who pride themselves in being the ones who 'hit it' or 'get some' when they get a girl in bed, but now they're the ones who are getting got.
"This new phenomenon is largely due to a new drug cocktail that causes men to lose awareness of their surroundings, while at the same time maintaining a massive erection."
"The next morning he will wake up on dirty sheets in a room that reeks of 'eau de sex' and perfume with nothing to show for it but an unshakable feeling of shame, degradation and the humiliation of having great sex - no thanks to themselves."
One U.S.E.D. member, Richie Janulewicz, 24, of Kempton, Ind., says his experience happened when he was only a freshmen in college.
"I was talking to this unbelievably hot chick at a party and thought for sure I'd get her number," he says. "But apparently, I got way more than that.
"One minute I was putting on the moves, and after that I can't remember anything. My buddies were all drilling me for the details and I was just pissed off that I had none to give them! Honestly, it haunts me to this day."
Another victim, Dan Bollier, had a similarly hazy bang-up night and woke up the next morning tired and exhausted, "just like I normally do after 'Russell the One-eyed Wonder Muscle' has a stellar performance," but with no desire to boast about the romp.
"I'm supposed to be 'Dan the Man.' I always run the show, but some girl took that away from me. I felt so used."
Bollier says he's upset that women have found a way to have one night stands without worrying about men spreading around "a hot, juicy story about what a freak they are."
"Sure we can add a notch on our bedpost, but it's no fun if we've lost our bragging rights."
O_O I wants me some of those drugs! |
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| back to blah |
[Nov. 1st, 2004|04:29 pm] |
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Well well well... the weekend was GREAT!!! I loved it. The party was some hot shit. Now that I have gained consciousness, I realize there's TONS of work to get done in school. =(. Oh well. Dressing as a woman wasn't THAT bad, I just loved reactions, that's it. Maybe I'll do it more often =X.
Oh and I forgive you for what you did to me Ms. Jane, I still love you. <3
**^*^GeT hIGh^*^** |
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[Sep. 28th, 2004|02:08 pm] |
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Been going to school. I got like two tests back today. I'm SOOO suprised I passed my sociology test with a 70% XD. I didn't study too well for that one. I got a 82% on my geology test. Easy. Chet came over yesterday for like one second. Fob came over like 2 days ago. More ggxx action. I kick ass with Venom, Johnny, Eddie, Axl and Slayer all well. I had a cigarette yesterday and it was NASTY. So yea I think I'm done with that shit. Not sure yet though =/. That's a bad thing. |
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